20 Weeks!
I always thought that when I was pregnant with my first little baby I would document EVERYTHING on this blog. I would want to remember every little detail and take a million pictures of my growing belly and anything baby related. I thought that I would have this healthy glow and that my hair would grow and that by some lucky twist of fate I would avoid all of the morning sickness and fatigue. Honestly I thought that I would be 24 and finishing up grad school and living in a little house with 3 bedrooms and a little backyard.
And while I'm so excited to have this little guy joining our family this October, he definitely demolished every expectation that I had of pregnancy. And he will probably crush all of my expectations about parenthood too.
And while I'm so excited to have this little guy joining our family this October, he definitely demolished every expectation that I had of pregnancy. And he will probably crush all of my expectations about parenthood too.
I've been keeping a journal about my pregnancy thus far but have had a hard time figuring out what exactly to say on social media. It all feels so private yet public and the emotions are so extreme. I've been worried about saying the wrong thing or sounding ungrateful because I don't want anyone to think that I'm not overjoyed to have a growing family - because I am so excited. But the realization that I am going to be a mom has brought with it a lot of worry an self doubt. It feels like a lot of change and responsibility that I honestly don't think that I'm ready for. It's all so new. And I think that has been why I haven't been quick to post anything. It's taken me a few months to come to terms with the fact that I'll make a lot if mistakes and that I have a lot to learn, but that it will eventually work out to be okay. And that no matter what I will always do my best and love this baby with my whole heart and just pray that it'll be enough.
SO, here I am, halfway through my pregnancy, finally posting about our little guy:)
SO, here I am, halfway through my pregnancy, finally posting about our little guy:)
Due Date: October 10th which is a Monday. I don't know why but I thought it was the weirdest thing that my due date is a weekday. I guess I just subconsciously assumed that these things were like weddings and birthday parties and only happened on weekends. HA
Gender: A BOY HALLELUJAH! My in-laws put together the cutest gender reveal party for us a few weeks ago and it was one of the best days of my life so far. I was CONVINCED that we were having a girl. Mostly because I knew that if it was a girl Cam would have a very hard time accepting that and I needed to be prepared to compensate for his lack of excitement. I think everyone was secretly hoping that it was a boy just for Cam tbh.
Name: All picked out but a secret. It's hard to explain but I just really like having something that is just between Cam, this baby, and me for now. It's fun to giggle about it and to have something that still just between us.
Gender: A BOY HALLELUJAH! My in-laws put together the cutest gender reveal party for us a few weeks ago and it was one of the best days of my life so far. I was CONVINCED that we were having a girl. Mostly because I knew that if it was a girl Cam would have a very hard time accepting that and I needed to be prepared to compensate for his lack of excitement. I think everyone was secretly hoping that it was a boy just for Cam tbh.
Name: All picked out but a secret. It's hard to explain but I just really like having something that is just between Cam, this baby, and me for now. It's fun to giggle about it and to have something that still just between us.
Sleep: Luckily I'm still able to sleep on my stomach. Other than waking up a few times each night to push Cam over to his designated 6 inches of the bed and drinking a full bottle of water, I've been sleeping just fine and often. Hello 9PM bedtime. Once I grow a little more and have to sleep on my side I imagine that sleep will be a thing of the past so I'm soaking this in as much as possible.
Movement: Yes! I feel him multiple times a day. It's my absolute favorite:) Yesterday we were laying in bed before church and I felt him kicking so I told Cam to watch my stomach so he could see it. It took a few moments and pokes but finally I watched his kick poke through my stomach. I was like, "Did you see that?" and looked over only to see a guilty looking Cam checking his twitter feed. Ugh. Hahah next time hopefully;)
How I’m feeling: So. Much. Better. I'm still taking my Diclegis in the mornings or else I start to get nauseous again by the afternoon but it has helped a ton. My appetite is also back and in full force. Yesterday alone I at half a pizza, a ham and cheese sandwich, chips, two bananas, and a burrito all before 6PM. I've been feeling bloated like I ate too much at Thanksgiving yet at the same time my stomach is growling and I have hunger pains.
Weight gain: I've decided totry to stop weighing myself for the rest of my pregnancy. With the high emotions and the obnoxious appetite I don't think weighing myself will do much good. Hah so until the doctor tells me that I'm gaining too much or too little I will just assume that everything is fine.
Movement: Yes! I feel him multiple times a day. It's my absolute favorite:) Yesterday we were laying in bed before church and I felt him kicking so I told Cam to watch my stomach so he could see it. It took a few moments and pokes but finally I watched his kick poke through my stomach. I was like, "Did you see that?" and looked over only to see a guilty looking Cam checking his twitter feed. Ugh. Hahah next time hopefully;)
How I’m feeling: So. Much. Better. I'm still taking my Diclegis in the mornings or else I start to get nauseous again by the afternoon but it has helped a ton. My appetite is also back and in full force. Yesterday alone I at half a pizza, a ham and cheese sandwich, chips, two bananas, and a burrito all before 6PM. I've been feeling bloated like I ate too much at Thanksgiving yet at the same time my stomach is growling and I have hunger pains.
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Best Moments: Accepting that pregnancy brain is a thing and blaming all of my blonde moments on it. One of the things that frustrate Cameron the most is that I forget EVERYTHING and if I don't write something down then he constantly has to remind me. And I've always been bad about that. But this is something else. A few weeks ago I was chatting with his grandpa and asking if he had any advice on how to fix an armrest on Cam's recliner. I went on about this for probably 15 minutes until Stephanie looked at me as was like, "Didn't you guys sell that thing?" OMG yes we did. Like two months ago. HA please send help. This brain of mine is not working correctly.
Also it's so fun watching Cam be so excited about having a new little buddy. I came home the other day to Cam putting together a baby swing with the biggest smile on his face. Heart Melted. We are also constantly talking about what Herschel will be like as a big brother. I think that after he gets over the jealousy of not having all of our attention they are going to be best friends.
Also it's so fun watching Cam be so excited about having a new little buddy. I came home the other day to Cam putting together a baby swing with the biggest smile on his face. Heart Melted. We are also constantly talking about what Herschel will be like as a big brother. I think that after he gets over the jealousy of not having all of our attention they are going to be best friends.
Missing Anything? Being able to walk up the stairs without getting winded. Heck, I miss being able to get up in the night and pee without being out of breath. During school I learned all about the benefits of exercising during pregnancy and was shocked at how many people simply didn't do it. What they didn't tell me is that it is HARD. They didn't tell me that even before I had a huge belly my heart rate would skyrocket at the thought of going for a run.
I am still somewhat trying to stay active during this pregnancy though. a couple of weekends ago Megan, Cam and I hiked Little Si. It was a gorgeous hike but I think the beauty of it was drowned out by the sound of me panting and eating granola bars and beef jerky the entire way up.
Looking Forward To: My last ultrasound on Wednesday. I am so excited to see how much he has grown in these last 6 weeks and to get some more pictures! I remember when my mom was pregnant with my little brother I couldn't understand how anyone could see a baby in the black and white fuzzy photo but now that it's my own I don't know how you could miss it. Can't wait!
I am still somewhat trying to stay active during this pregnancy though. a couple of weekends ago Megan, Cam and I hiked Little Si. It was a gorgeous hike but I think the beauty of it was drowned out by the sound of me panting and eating granola bars and beef jerky the entire way up.
Looking Forward To: My last ultrasound on Wednesday. I am so excited to see how much he has grown in these last 6 weeks and to get some more pictures! I remember when my mom was pregnant with my little brother I couldn't understand how anyone could see a baby in the black and white fuzzy photo but now that it's my own I don't know how you could miss it. Can't wait!
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